Perseverance Vs Determination

We are always taught to be patient and calm. 

We are always taught to say RIP my dreams I am a wife/daughter in law / mother now. 

Yes I am a mother and I have no complaints in loosing my two valuable years of my career 

but I never want to a bad example to my daughter and I never want her to think that this is how a women should lead her life 

Very less women are blessed with parents who are confident enough to tell her that - 'Go chase your dreams'  

Yes I had this super cool mom n dad who never said NO when I said I wanna work or I wanna do my PG or I said I had a break up and finally when I said I wanna marry some1 whom I think s ideal for me. 

For me I always had this support system when I went for my first interview/ when I wanted that seat for MBA when I lost my ammuma. 

Now when I look back I am actually just thinking did I have that magic support when I called up and said I am the only one who didnt qualify for the HR interview from a group of some 40 students, when I said my Uncle who I loved like my father passed away, when my parents where mad at me for some reason, When I said I just wanna go a trip to celebrate the new beginning, When I said I am scared to go back to a house where they never wanted me, when I said I just need to check if I am pregnant, when my baby was born, when I just wanted a 10 minutes proper conversation, NO and its a big NO. Then I think its time for me to be determined and just understand that life is gonna soon get sucked so be determined and there is no magicians in my life any more who WILL GUIDE me so GET UP AND GET A LIFE!  

Life after Death

Got up and saw I was dead :P Strated laughing cing ma body lying down in a nonsensical way (shit I sleep like this? ) :P

N then I saw Yama devan .. I said Hi n he asked me -So ready for the long drive? there was two trucks one a small white cute one and a huge yellow truck and saw many inside and among them was a handsome boy with a green t-shirt which I could never miss :P So before I could get inside I was given a questionnaire which I had to fill n the it read "Your feedbacks on- The life On Earth"  Mr.Yaman gave me a table n Chair n asked me 2 fill it with an open mind - the questions 

1. Your Date of death :P 

2. How was your life on earth (it sucked , it sucked big time, it was ridiculous ) 

3. How many did u hurt (1-10,  10-20, 50 - 100 , cant count) 

4. How many did u kill using ur bad words (1-10,  10-20, 50 - 100 , cant count) 

5. Wat do u love more (ur mobile , ur laptop) 

6. Things which you love doing ( FBing , etc) 

7. Food, Water & shelter – you had them all ? Yes No

8. Now tell me where do you fit (Hell or Mini Hell) 

Gave ma answer sheet to Mr.Yaman n he said ' Oh God absolute waste of time :P 

Ok gal welcome to hell' Got into the yellow truck and there I saw a bunch of plp really mad and the background scrore was "GET READY TO GET FRIED YE YE YE YE" 

Ammumma - Grandma

The most irritataing person during my school days :P

I was sharing my room with her and she did a good job in eating my head :) For her the most important person in our family was my Dad and she was shit scared of him :P
The Job which she loved doing was to cook rice from outside. In the era of pressure cooker & gas stove she was the only one in my world who loved making rice in the hand made stove out of rock & steel vessel. Everyday morning she will come and ask my mother "njan appam choru veka alle" if my mother says a No it was like a bad day for her because that was the only happening thing in her life. I can still picture the way she sits in front of that fire checking whether the fire is enough for the rice to get cooked.
Since I was not a great student in school for me studying only happened during exam time. Scoring decent marks was the only aim. So during exam time i use to keep studying late night and she keeps asking me to switch off the light not becauase she was getting distrubed but electricity was like her second son :P

That was the time I was a fan of MTV Roadies & when mom n dad goes to office my honeymoon period to watch TV gets a life.For her watching MTV was sinful because in that according to her girls never wear clothes and boys kept touching girls. She starts her commentary and keeps asking me to watch some news channel. One day I got pissed off and I still remember keeping a telgu news channel just to make her wish come true (news channel). She coudnt understand a single word but was curiously watching. I went off and when I came back I asked her did u understand and she replied "ya but this news reader was way too fast and she didnt knw to how to speak malayalam" I couldt control my laugh but told her "c this is why I am telling we should never watch news during day time". I am sorry ammumma for fooling you on that day ....

For her I never knew how to take bath and keeps saying "korachu enna techo mudilu" . I was the motta in family with terrible lookinh hair style and brow hair. For her my sisters hair was perfect which use to be long - strong and black (the mallu hair ). I hate applying oil and I use act asif I am applying oil in front of amma. One day I didnt close the bathroom door while taking a hair bath and still remember that two eyes which was staring at me through the door. Who else other than my ammumma can do such an act. I screamed and gave her a  blast and asked her why she had to do such a uneathical act becoz I was in 8th and during that time sme1 cing us naked is smething which we can never digest.  And for that her reply was "i just wanted to check whether you are taking a proper hair bath". Now for that ammumma I must say i still dont knw and I knw from heaven u wil be saying "sho ee peninnu epazhum kulikaan ariyilla :P "

We keep fighitng the whole day for some silly things escpecially during my study holidays but I never use to miss giving you my tea which u loved. I knw u still love it :) . You are the person who tauhgt me to make black tea and I am greatful to you for that :)

Amma use to ask ammumma whther I was really studying and so making her believe that I am studying was my tough task which was actually not that tough. I kept reading bla bla bla and she use to think I am studying :P

The best friend of her was Pathumma. Pathu had a ear problem and could hear only partially but ammumma n pathu use to gossip abt others excellently and me n amma use to wonder how they communicate.

I am thankful to you for giving me my wonderful dad & ever loving uncles. Will keep you in my prayers.  I know you are smiling from there.

Super man turns into a super common man

This is the case with the many (exceptions are there in my family)

Men goez behind a girl singing the song "I can love you like no1 can, I can be your superman .....She starts her homework of making him understand the basics of life like"marriage s not a simple game", "you will have to build your career first", "we will have to face the opposition from our parents" but for all these womenly thoughts men makes her keep quiet by saying "me hu na"... n gal starts singing the song for herself in the background. If he comes under the bracket of "bad boys" then she has to do hard work because the ultimate aim is to make the world praise about him. 

I feel that till the time a women falls for a boy she is intelligent & sensible  and once a boy gets into her life all the intelligence in her right or left part of the brain transfers into the center part of his so called brain. So what I mean s men are all foolish until he falls for a girl & women go retarded once she fall for a guy.. 

Man makes a gal fall for her by his super natural "care" & "love" which he over-floats making her feel "this is the guy". Here what happens is her expectations about him will be up in the 20th floor. She customizes her mind and communicates to her brain "now dnt think too much" .And now the game begins ..

When a  man calls his girl when she s surrounded by friends the full crowd will say "wow luk how much he care 4 u" but when women does the same thing then its a "disturbance"  

He says you are my best & nothing more than you and then when she gets serious abt him he says "concentrate on your career this s not child play" The same guy who says he loved the silence they shared over phone says that the silence is something which irritates him the most. 

This s life .. So here what you have to do is frm a normal gal u be a super woman who never thinks so much..
Find happiness in small things .. Never forget to smile ... & be with people who can understand You and can cheer you up :) Nothing is going wrong give some time to the time :P

You can never stop loving him becoz one day you knw that he will turn back into a superman ..
Love is to wait till he gets bald n say "shit I never thought that we will make it this large" 

Its never too late to lock the room

In your house of life some rooms should be locked up forever ...

You wait n wait for the light to brighten it up but then you get sinked in the darkeness ......

Then one day will come when you realise that you have to get up & walk all by yourself...........

Knowing that the room is filled with negative thoughts & darkness ...........

Paint My Memories

I love the way memories get captured into this small device .....
I cant paint , but you make ma Job simple but painting all those beautiful people around me...
Have no idea on how you works  .... but  just love painting people through You.......
Can never get bored If you are there and you are loaded with pics...

So many times I have thought "why the fuck I dnt have You with me "
I know that I cant afford U, but its not keeping me away from buying..

I am already in Love with You ....Welcome to my life :)

Why You

You proposed me one mid-night and said "I thought you knew that I was in love with you"

From that day You make me believe that hubbys can be best friends with no ego or bossiness .........

You will not mind getting me a drink if I want to get sloshed but will make sure that I reach home safely ....

You fight with me really hard but make sure to support me if we are in a crowd ........

You can tolerate my insane Jokes but can never tolerate my tears........

You can travel with me for no reason but can never move around when a world cup match is being telecatsted ......

You Will ride the bike rashly even if I am sitting behind making me believe that bikes are more important than me & bike will remain a tough competition in ma life......

You dnt mind eating up my full KFC when you are really hungry without even asking me whether I want...........

You keep advicing me on how I should cook but will say it was awsome when i make something really simple..

You keep saying that you are gonna change making me realise that men can never change ...

 Now any1 want anymore reason for WHY I AM WITH YOU :)