Saturday, April 2, 2016

Perseverance Vs Determination

We are always taught to be patient and calm. 
We are always taught to say RIP my dreams I am a wife/daughter in law / mother now. 
Yes I am a mother and I have no complaints in loosing my two valuable years of my career 
but I never want to a bad example to my daughter and I never want her to think that this is how a women should lead her life 
Very less women are blessed with parents who are confident enough to tell her that - 'Go chase your dreams'  
Yes I had this super cool mom n dad who never said NO when I said I wanna work or I wanna do my PG or I said I had a break up and finally when I said I wanna marry some1 whom I think s ideal for me. 
For me I always had this support system when I went for my first interview/ when I wanted that seat for MBA when I lost my ammuma. 
Now when I look back I am actually just thinking did I have that magic support when I called up and said I am the only one who didnt qualify for the HR interview from a group of some 40 students, when I said my Uncle who I loved like my father passed away, when my parents where mad at me for some reason, When I said I just wanna go a trip to celebrate the new beginning, When I said I am scared to go back to a house where they never wanted me, when I said I just need to check if I am pregnant, when my baby was born, when I just wanted a 10 minutes proper conversation, NO and its a big NO. Then I think its time for me to be determined and just understand that life is gonna soon get sucked so be determined and there is no magicians in my life any more who WILL GUIDE me so GET UP AND GET A LIFE!