Friday, March 25, 2011

A Call !!!!!!!!!!

A week before, I Called up jeyan as usual to make sure hez happy and he said "go home and give me a call". Reached home tired and hungry and Tea was the first priority. Saw my dad sitting and he was looking at me as if he had to say something. But as usual he called up my Mom and said "give ponny something to eat she look tired". I went inside and saw my mom not making eye contacts with me. I was about to take the plate and run for the remote to watch cricket than their stupid serial but then mom said "ponny -jeays dad had called they said it will happen only in March". I was blank and felt cheated but never reacted but called him to ask whats going wrong. He said he is out and as usual I started with my high pitch dialoguez.  I was mad because again I am making my Mom n Dad tensed on unwanted things. I felt like calling them to ask do they even know the meaning of something called"giving a word". I called him and that night I spoke to him those things which I should never have said. For me God was also in their side looking @ me and laughing ... All 3 days I switched off my mobile to make sure I am not getting connected with any1 around.
Sundays use to be the day when I make plans to hang around with frnds .. but now the concept of sundays has changed .. After coming home this was the first time I am sitting home without doing anything and avoiding any conversation with any1 becoz I was sure I will terribly fail in explaining wat I exactly feel.. Amma said she wants me to accompany her to feroke where ma aunt stays .. I said I want to watch the match but since it was not a valid reason to give I agreed to it .. then sitting in front of the system trying to get distracted ma Mom came and said call up jeyan and speak to him .. I was mum n just gave an expression which she could read it "buy Y" .. She started explaining that this is the time I should be with him .. watever be d reason there is nothing wrong in saying a Hi .. I was waiting for some1 to tell this and i dialed his number fast .. After 2-3 ring he tuk(thats his style ..even if he has his phone in hand he will wait to make sure whether the person really wanna talk) and said a hello .. since it was from my landline he had a doubt whether its me or sme1 else.. there was silence and I was laughing because I found it very funny to be so serious with Him .. n then he cried .......... a long pause ...... a call turned up everything .. From that point I started acting normally n things wer much bright n lovely ... 

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Full Stop !!!!!!

I fell into it with no much hope ..
Started njoying the waves when it came from nowhere ... 
It took me into a different world where I forgot what my past had done to me....
Then It started keeping silent........ 
Started running behind because I was never ready to loose........
Started crying hoping that it will come back to wash my tears away ........
So from No hope my life was filled with hope ........
Then one day I understand that I was the one blocking it from moving forward... 
I can never give back anything because I stand all lost n blank...... 
Saying a sorry can never bring back anything ........

So the friction of Love ends with a distance...... 
Loved the journey though I was talking to myself ...... Started writing because I was always in love with myself.. Now If I hate some1 thats only me !!!!!!!! If I am not able to love myself I can never Love others .... being loved  by the ones u least care and getting a "least care" attitude from sme1 you live for is the greatest pain u wil ever come across .... I can still  remember d  way u signed me off @ d station and I can live with it ............. Bye friction ... 

I never knew love will touch me this hard :)

Just wish I could stop the time right here because I am not sure whether I can Love You so deeply anytime latter. 

Monday, March 7, 2011

Will the cards Change

Today was a happening day in ma life :) When I have no more hopes, God just put One another chapter into ma life and tellz "This is for U now I want a smile in ur face" I love my dear Eswara !!!!!!!! Plz dont make this also a chapter which runs for a minute instead make it a long story where I can wrap up many good memories and which make me a better human being :) I promise to make @ least one person smile in each day :)))))))) 

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Keeping the dialogue alive : Paulo Coelho's Blog


Keeping the dialogue alive
Rabbi Iaakov’s wife was always looking for an excuse to argue with her husband. Iaakov never reacted to her provocations.
Until one night when, during a dinner with some friends, the rabbi had a ferocious argument with his wife to the surprise of all at the table.
“What happened?” they asked. “Why did you break your habit of never answering?”
“Because I realized that what bothered my wife the most was the fact that I remained silent. Acting in this way, I remained far from her emotions. My reaction was an act of love: now she understands that I hear her words.”

Don't allow your wounds to transform you into someone you are not.

All perfect Love Stories stays incomplete !!!!!!

To fall In love there are three main steps !!!!!
convincing urself
convincing ur friends
convincing ur parents

Parents: In India Parents are considered Intelligent only if they are against Love Marriage !!!!The more time they take to get convinced the more responsible they are ..

Friends: Married ones will never support U since they know U r getting into deep shit n those who are committed will never have much to say n wil welcome U with a smile saying "yeee joining the way to hell" n those who are single ..now there s a challenge in convincing them .. u try to explain wats its all about n when they try to help u out U JUST STAB them saying "U will not understand"

Convincing Urself: All the rest of it will happen only till U get married... But this part alone goes ON n on for quiet a some time ...... The more U love there are more chances for U getting hurt .. So be Practical .. Now where does practicality come in Love I have no idea .. But yes practicality is all what we need .. Girls who fall in love should make sure that they are never getting involved so much .. Its very easy for boys to change but for a gal changes happen slowly and when they finally get convinced n start saying OK now this s ma world only U .. D WHOLE GAME goes for a replay ..... Protect Urself from getting hurt ...

Friday, March 4, 2011

Change

We should know to embrace change or else we will never njoy life ......
But why does people change .. Actually Human Beings can never change thats what I have understood.. ...
We fail to understand people and we get close with them believing our perceptions about them.. We create an Image about each Individual in our bloody stupid mind :) Now if we get upset on the way people behave we should actually blame our perception .. Why did we expect things will be perfect when you know very well that we live in a KALI KALAM .. where NO one is perfect and everyone lovez manipulations...  Start realizing the fact that everyone are equally bad and self centered  then everything will come in place :)